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omg! today i went 2 school...it wasent bad it actually was fun..WOW..comming from me lol..hehe therees summ really hott guys that i was missing out on b4 i use 2 see them everyday oh damn i missed them lol haha but now im BACKKKkkkkkkk!!!! :) lOl im sooo lonelyy u have nooooooo clue!! jeezes crist!! i want james! but i know i have noooooo absalute chance with him...i wna atleast hook up with him see how it is..lol.. oh shit! i need a bf so badd its killin me! dammn mann i hate this single alone shit i always get played theres not ONCE where i was with a guy n i didnt get hurt/played r soemthing happend not ONCE! id be happy if i fell in love but never it will never falll in love i doubt it...haha ima loser..

Er i dont even know....
ughh! this suckss again im geting fucked over.. i like james...shhhh i guess thats out! ugh! =/ i like him but yet i know he wont like me #1 im ugly #2 he likes sum1 else..#3 this grl keeps flirting with him so i know i dont have a chane im always fucking up..i hate this it really sucks i wish i can find sum1 get serious with them its so0o hard tho..no white guy likes me cuz they think im something im not i bet...idk..i just wish it was diff..damn! im so confused rite now...THINKING.!

ERrrrrrrrr!!!
lately iv been feeling very shitty and depressed dont feel like living at all! it sucks big time...i hardly go 2 school it makes me so depressed and i cant think straight cuz theres soo many other things on my mind...im soo lonely y is it that whenever i had a so called "boyfriend" i always seem lonely even when im not..thats cuz maybe it wasent meant 2 be..i know that for a fact! all bf's i had were all dick heads! except one in like kindagarten haha! damnnn iwant 2 transfer out of clifton high..seriously.. clifton is known for talking shit..it suckss so bad n if i go 2 a diff. school its gona be the same cuz wherever u go everyone talks shit..u cant do anything about that..except kill yourself haha but im not going 2 do that im not that depressed! well i dont know waht 2 write..i didnt go 2 schol 2day im very bored listening 2 a song..and its making me tear...=/ hehe buh~bye xOxO